Tuesday, July 29, 2008

peeps! here i am updating again. :)

was supposed to be in uu-lu-lu boonlay now for camp but i am at home! wanted to help out doing initiation nite now but i dn have much choice but to come home cause i need to meet my supervisor just now at AMK. AMK is sooo far. no no, ntu is too ulllu i would say. luckily it wasnt just pass him the file and go, at least he went thru my reflections and we talked for an hour. but i didn want him to finish reading thru everythin also, some was briefly done! :X haha. especially the last reflection but i must say i impressed myself today. :P i actually finish my last reflection and file up a decent TA file on the dot! maybe i reali shouldn keep procastinating. very very bad habit. :/

well, but i feel bad that i cant help out at 44 with the other blk reps to tekan the freshies! it may be very tiring but it was kinda fun too, esp u get to tekan all the cute guys. lol, just kidding. ;) but this reminded me of the initiation last yr where only me, xuemin and HH slogged throughout the whole nite. i wonder how we made it thru. realli realli very shagged. mm, and i still miss omc intro in the end. i think it is fated cuz that is part of the reason why i didnt go for thailand trip and now i stil miss it. haa.

going back to wookdgrove pri tml morning hence i think coming home is a better decision. it almost slipped my mind that i have not handed in my last reflection. and i miss the kids! they are all so cute! i just checked my emails and one of the kids sent me an email asking me to rest well. i feel super super warmed laaaa. :) and im also gg bak sch tml to take the stuffs they have for me. very pleasant surprise. :D im glad i have not make the wrong decision afterall.

alright! i shall stop here now. feel a lil bit tired alr. fright nite tml and my mum just have to remind me that this fri is the start of hungry ghost festival. shudderrrrs.

11:11 PM

Friday, July 25, 2008

25th July 2008 - a day i have been anticipating since 5 weeks ago. Somehow, everything didnt go as how i expected it to be. it was supposed to be a super happy day, but all i felt today was 'everything went wrong'. I don't feel well. down feeling. basically cuz i disliked the feeling of kepp thinking back of all the 'what ifs' and how i wish i could reverse everythin back. the tinge of regret.

it was a busy 5th week. i had a FTT, bdae presents/making, gifts making for the kids and CTs. these was enough to take up my time. all along, i tot my ftt was on thurs and i remembered it that way because it was feng's bdae. yet when i suddenly had the urge to check my bbdc account on thurs morning in school.. the date stated 25/7 fri. i stared for 1 min and yup, my blurness. oh wells, i had spent wed studying for it and had neglected the other stuffs. and so i spent thurs rushing thru sewing the present and continue doing my gifts for the kids. dinner was that night so by then i had only finish sewing the present but i was only halfway on my gifts. i need to get it done by fri morning! and so i came back ard 12 and spent the whole nite till 5am to do the gifts. luckily boyf was also helping. came 6am.. but no! we haven do finish and we were so tong ku tryin to stay awake. and yup, it was time to prepare to go to sch. that instant feeling was so horrible cause i haven finish and i didn feel exactly v well due to the stay up. so guess what, i took MC for my last day. arggg!!

i spent the morning continue doing. duno whether i had choose my gifts wrongly anot or whether it was the problem of my time management. the gifts for them was personalized bookmarks for all the 78 kids, with overlapping papers, very cute stars, stickers, ribbons and 78 different motivational quotes! i guess i over-estimated myself and under-estimated the time needed to make them. alot of effort was put in and though some handwriting was quite ugly, i was quite satisfied with them. :) oh, and my CTs notes.

okay, the issue was i wanted to rush back to the school before 1pm to see all of them and passed them the gifts because i promised some kids i will be in school today. feel so bad tt i kinda broke my promise. and it was the last day, so it feels unfinished for me not to say goodbye and i still need to give the photostated MC to the general office so back to sch i went. but.. both my CTs and kids are not in sch anymore. :( i left the stuffs on their tables. bid the principal goodbye and i took cab (10 bucks) to bbdc for my ftt. but know what, i FAILED. argg, so disappointed in myself. i did study afterall. and now i have to waut for another 2 mths and hv to extent my PDL. i cant even study properly when im supposed to be a student. undescrible feeling.

ALL in all, after this whole espisode of rushing here and there in cab and not meeting my own deadlines, plus everythin ended up not accomplished made me feel kinda sucky, esp when not even one thing went right. what a day. :(:(:(

9:42 PM